I gave up and ate cake.

I've had a shocking day, and honestly, it came out of nowhere. I must admit, I haven't been as motivated this week as I normally am when I jump back on the wagon, but I was going so well! I wasn't even hungry, but my uni work was frustrating me, and I just gave up and ate cake. I'm hopeless! I even half cooked a small amount of choc chip cookie batter and then ate it with ice cream... it was incredible, but what a low moment. I couldn't even wait for it to fully cook, so I took it out of the oven early and dug in. Who even does that? There was no food in the house, so I just made some cookie dough. Urgh. I feel gross.

Hopefully tomorrow will begin a new day, and another attempt at my weight loss efforts. I think I was getting really bored with eating the same foods everyday, so I've created, using Weight Watchers cookbooks a one week menu of heaps of different healthy foods. I made a shopping list and went out and bought the ingredients. Upon arriving home I began making dinner - Weight Watchers beef ravioli. I wasn't even hungry, and because of that, I couldn't enjoy it. I couldn't wait the 8 minutes for it to cook, and dug into an open bag of chocolate chips. Which were gross by the way, but once I start, I can never stop. Such a negative attitude!

After dinner I went and heated up a lentil/veggie patty, and it was just gross. It made me feel sick (you'd think I'd get the message after all this!) and I just lay on the floor, a horrible, fat, bloated mess. The only thing I knew would make me feel better was to go and have a long hot shower.

I feel a little better now; I'm really hoping tomorrow can be a new start. I wish my Weight Watchers meeting was on tomorrow; I just want to get back into it. I figure if I'm paying money, then I'll have to do this. Money seems to be a big incentive for everything at the moment. I'd love to join a gym, but once again, money is a huge constraint!

So I stuffed up, but I've brushed me teeth and it's game over for tonight. I just have to get over it, and move on, get back on the wagon, and once again get on with my weight loss efforts. As minimal as they may seem at the moment!

I CAN do this; I've done it before and I can do it again!!